Swan Songs, Too: The One-Offs, The Mistakes, The Too-Lates (2013 EP)
by The Insurrectionists
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is this what you need or is this what you want?
you keep on saying that you believe, but you don't
just know that i'll wait for you 'til the world's had enough
until we all kill each other, or 'til Atlas shrugs
i could tell you but it hurts too much
if i could reach you give me one more touch
cause i'm still lying on your bed in the dark
i never left
look for me there
and i'm still toiling away at your heart
i never left
look for me there
so this is how i'll be repaid?
what if i just get up and walk away?
as i looked up, i cried, "why does god torture me?"
Atlas shrugged and said, "who is god, but a deity?"
i could tell you but it hurts too much
if i could reach you give me one more touch
cause i'm still lying on your bed in the dark
i never left
look for me there
and i'm still toiling away at your heart
i never left
look for me there
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Fragile (2013 Demo)
04:39
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i tried to make everyone else happy
but on that mission, i lost my compass
now, i can't find myself
well the seasons change, but people don't
and all the blame is thrown upon me
don't put your words in my mouth
as if i'd be so lucky as to have
things go my way
we can't have that
how long will i last?
a ho-hum day in paradise seems
pretty nice compared to this life
all i have to do is close my eyes
up in my head, i'm by myself
no fear or pressure or thoughts that dwell
why can't life be care-free?
as if i'd be so lucky as to have
things go my way
we can't have that
how long will i last?
the years go by like seconds flashing
before you know it, your whole life passes
and no, you don't get a second shot
so make the best of what you're given
if there's a god up there, he must be laughing
we are such nervous things
as if i'd be so lucky as to have
things go my way
we can't have that
how long will i last?
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i'm trapped in this body like a ghost
the ghosts torment me for doing so
i'm just a body without a soul
the ghosts don't want me to come home
in purgatory, playing catch with my heart
the voices haunt me for all my wants
i know not what i mean anyway
the ghosts don't me but i'm here to stay
we are ghosts in the machine
forced to stay when we want to leave
our hearts wander thru time and space
while our bodies are stuck in the same old place
i'm stuck in the middle of right and wrong
the jury judges me for doing so
when will the light come to show me the way?
nobody wants me here, why do i stay?
trapped in present, and teased by future
haunted by past loves and pleasures
i'm just a body, my soul's gone home
what good is heaven if i'll never go?
we are ghosts in the machine
forced to stay when we want to leave
our hearts wander thru time and space
while our bodies are stuck in the same old place
there are ghosts in the machine
coming to take me away from this place
time and space are novelties of the human race
and its high time that i get to leave
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Sludge (2013 Demo)
04:02
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go far away
past where the streets have no name
you'll find people there
the people there are hard to come by
the people there refuse to fly
this is why i don't stray
you connect the dots and tell me what the lines make
i'll play the odds with a shotgun in my face
it's never the right time for anything
right now, i only have time for apathy
sludge and shame
rain down from the heavens again
greed and rain
wading thru the bullshit
waiting for the same old shit to change
this is why i don't stay
you connect the dots and tell me what the lines make
i'll play the odds with a shotgun in my face
it's never the right time for anything
right now, i only have time for apathy
you connect the dots and tell me what the lines make
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Up (2013 Demo)
04:38
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well, i refuse to wait around
just for you to tell me you could live without
my moodiness and confusion
to tell me that i'm losing
tell me what you figure out
where it is i'm going
tell me when you figure out
where i've come from
tell me when you figure out
where i'm going to
where the hell am i going?
well, i will not be a mistake
a question mark on life's page
i only sit alone for now
cause someday soon,
i'll figure out
why it is no one understands
and why it is i can't cry on command
someday soon, i'll be away from this place
up with the birds or in outer space
tell me what you figure out
where it is i'm going
tell me when you figure out
where i've come from
tell me when you figure out
where i'm going to
where the hell am i going?
i am more than human being
life is more than you and me
tell me what you figure out
where it is i'm going
tell me when you figure out
where i've come from
tell me when you figure out
where i'm going to
where the hell am i going?
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Swan Song (2013 Demo)
03:11
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it was cold and i was nervous, not much has changed
cause now i'm cold and even more nervous than before
even though i trust you've learned, i think you'll make the same mistakes
just so you know, i'm not going to be left empty-handed
is this how life's supposed to be?
is it you with her, or you and me?
i won't give up on you yet
well, even trees know when it's time to shed their leaves
so why's it wrong if i know when i want to leave?
i hope you hear this song i wrote for you,
so my words don't go to waste
but if you don't, i guess they'll just end up in outer space
is this how life's supposed to be?
is it you with her, or you and me?
i won't give up on you yet
i'll take it step by step
i'll fill my pockets with rocks
and jump into the lake in the park
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to think i've waited here so long
and all i could do was write you this song
and i'll hold it above your head
maybe you won't lead me on again
if you want me to stay
don't you dare look away
with thistle and thorn all over your face
i thought that we were on the same page
but i guess the meaning of love is subject to change
i'm not on a leash, don't drag me along
i've decided i don't care for you, i think i'll walk alone
if you want me to stay
don't you dare look away
with thistle and thorn all over your face
whisper nothings in my ear
i mean it, cause nothing's all i hear
you say these words but don't know what they mean
do you know what you're doing to me?
if you want me to stay
don't you dare look away
with thistle and thorn all over your face
thistle and thorn all over your face
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Loser (2013 Demo)
03:33
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if i was a kid again, i would've turned my back on
all you so-called friends
and if i knew better then,
i would've run away from here
away from here
i'm on the outside looking in
talking to myself and my friends up in my head
how is all of this happening?
i don't want this to be real
my real life starts when i go to bed
when i go to bed
i'm reaching the end of the rope
the cracks on the sidewalk won't let go
i'm swimming with cinderblocks for toes
when i go to bed
i'm reaching the end of the rope
the cracks on the sidewalk won't let go
i'm swimming with cinderblocks for toes
when i go to bed
i'm reaching the end of the rope
(i'm a loser)
the cracks on the sidewalk won't let go
(i'm a loser)
i'm swimming with cinderblocks for toes
(i'm a loser)
(just so you know)
when i go to bed
i'm reaching the end of the rope
(i'm a loser)
the cracks on the sidewalk won't let go
(i'm a loser)
i'm swimming with cinderblocks for toes
(i'm a loser)
go to bed
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Stargaze (2013 Demo)
09:18
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life is grey when you're looking up
life is great when you're stuck in a rut
"we're the same"—well no, we're not
cause you are sane and i am not
things are looking up
smiles, they fade, but frowns, they don't
you may stay, but i won't
"you're to blame"—well no, i'm not
it's the same without my part
things are looking up
times, oh how they change
a year from today it'd be
another way
why'd we change?
i want to change
cause i don't want to stay
if it means staying this way
i am lost again
i lost a friend
i lost my head
wait! things can go right for me
i know there has to be somebody
out there who will listen to me
wait! things can go right for me
things are looking up
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about
I will be releasing all the music I have created in my dismal life slowly over the coming weeks, exclusively on bandcamp, in order to clear out the archives and turn the material over to the world. Most of it is not pretty or even good by most measures, but every single song has had a part in my growth as a human being and for that alone I feel they deserve at least the opportunity to be heard and dissected.
these songs were recorded during the summer/fall/winter of 2012/2013 alongside the tracks that ended up on "swan songs". this EP was released as the leftovers of that EP, songs that for one reason or another weren't finished by the time of its release, but is very much a continuation of the same themes and techniques used on that recording. if i remember correctly, both "swan song" and "thistle & thorn" were played at the last show for the swan songs era.
it marked a further embrace of more electronic elements in my songs, with piano being at the heart of most of the tracks. in looking at these songs its quite funny that each really has its own memorable story behind it. as much as they were labelled as throwaway tracks, they are all very unique and in a few cases, would be very important songs both later on and just in my development as a songwriter and musician.
these songs were recorded during the summer/fall/winter of 2012/2013 alongside the tracks that ended up on "swan songs". this EP was released as the leftovers of that EP, songs that for one reason or another weren't finished by the time of its release, but is very much a continuation of the same themes and techniques used on that recording. if i remember correctly, both "swan song" and "thistle & thorn" were played at the last show for the swan songs era.
it marked a further embrace of more electronic elements in my songs, with piano being at the heart of most of the tracks. in looking at these songs its quite funny that each really has its own memorable story behind it. as much as they were labelled as throwaway tracks, they are all very unique and in a few cases, would be very important songs both later on and just in my development as a songwriter and musician.
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released January 19, 2021
all music and lyrics by casey k except "video games" by lana del rey
all music and lyrics by casey k except "video games" by lana del rey
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